I've been yearning to sit down and do this. I'm not good in expressing my thoughts and emotions into words but i'll try. Anyway, its been approximately two months. And honestly, im struggling with this relationship. Everyday, i battle to get through it. Every single fucking day. Im exhausted of trying to work things out between us, but at every end of the day afterall those efforts, we still fight. What differs now, you are just not like how i used to know you.i dont understand what changed you. And that sudden change of urs is definitely traumatizing for me. You no longer yearn to solve any problems that come by. We use, to belive in the "US principle". Everything we do, we do it together and we believe that nothing can bring us down and we'll solve every single mother fucking problems together. Its no longer like that anymore.

I am not as strong as I would like myself to think. Its draining me soo bad. Sometimes, I wonder, why isn't our relationship as blissful as others. Above all this, i just want my boyfriend to understand that i really really need this relationship to be back like what it should have been. Because at this point of time, i really really feel like quitting. The only reason me holding on, cause i believe everything will fall back to place one fine day. But i do hope that day comes really soon. Cause, for whatever shit that im going through now is painful. Its a struggle. This aching feeling, is just horrible.